Had some mini unhappiness last night with him.. and after everything was resolved and explained on msn, I told him how I wish he was here with me now.. Then he said if I wan he take cab down lor.. *Happy.. but the catch was.. cab fare half half.. =p Talked a lot to him tat night. He was lying down n I know he was dozing off every now n then. Didnt know if he was really listening but he claimed he was. I kept talking n crying n crying n talking.. So much feelings inside.. So many things to sae.. So many things tat wan to sae but normally wont sae coz of face n ego problem.. I think all aries~an have ego problem.. *tell me I m right.. Anyway, I tot he was super drowsy tats y I was able to sae wats on my mind n sob...

Todae we went to PS and The Cathy to catch Lakehouse.. Nice but slow movie.. But I still think it was good.. After tat juz walked around and rush back home to catch the 9pm show.. After the show, we went for a super short tiny walk coz I wanted to.. N he asked wats wrong with mi.. Wat craziness is it this time round.. Oh well.. Its love craziness.. (I can only love a lot or love very litle, cannot love in the middle) wanted to send him to the bus stop but he said no coz late le n dark already then I got to walk back myself.. So cannot..

My mum once told me: ''choose someone who loves u more than u love him...''

Shared this with Cheryl once in hall before too and she told me her mum told her the same thing..

Hmm.. ponder into deep thoughts.. well, i kind of agree to this.. if u choose someone who loves u more, u would b showered with his love. And as time pass, u will feel that he isnt that bad a person. U will feel loved, pampered and safe. Knowing that this person will always be there.. And slowly but unknowningly, u will fall for tat person.

But using the 'love knowledge', why would u choose someone who u love less as compared to another person who u love more? Hmph.. Of course we would choose the one we love more. So now u r the one who shower him with all ur love. 100%. And if he does give u wat u feel as his 100%, after some time, u feel tired and question urself.. Why are u giving so much.. and receiving so little..

Oh well, juz my wondering thoughts.. hehe.. =)

But oh well, wat u perceive as not 100% may be tat person's 100% already..

But is that enough???

Study Table --- Checked


Book Shelf --- Checked


Drawer --- Checked


File --- Checked


Pencil Box --- Still in search


Went Ikea, went back hall to get my stuff and went to Paul's place to get my stuff yesterdae.. My kind uncle got a lorry for me and I managed to arrange to get everything back here. So got back home at abt evening time n he started fixing my study table n my bookshelf. I fixed the drawer myself with my sis this mornin.. and oh ya there was error.. but we managed to retify it.. Hahaha.. Guys r the most attractive when they are serious n putting all their heart n soul concentrating on doing sth.. **Tats wat i think.. =)

Saturdae morning: He is on his way for soccer... Not juz any ordinary soccer game.. but a game I organised for him.. A surprise soccer game.. =) Started msging ppl on tue and only managed to settle everything on thursday.. Well, according to the people who say ok, enough ppl.. So thursday, I pass him the invitation card.. =) Last night, he called n told me this: ''u call everyone le, then forget abt ball right?'' Hahaha.. Great, he knows tat I might forget tat. But he told me he asked Edwin to bring le.. This mornin, he told mi Edwin left the ball in his bro car.. OMG.. but oh well Rizan will be bringing but he would b late.. Then he told me maybe wont a lot of ppl come also.. Coz everyone everytime on tat dae itself lazy de.. =( but he said this: ''I really appreciate wat u have done... Thanks so much...'' Hehe.. to mi, like tat enough le.. =)

Went Ikea with cs and both my sis todae to shop for funiture.. Needed a study table, a bookshelf and a drawer.. We reached there at like 3pm and left Ikea at 9pm.. OMG OMG OMG... Spent so much time deciding, choosing n planning.. OMG.. N if its not for Crystal, I think I wont end up deciding on a single thing todae.. She was like there drawing, rearranging the funiture so as to fit everything.. BUT after we decided on everything n went to the collection area, the person ask if I m driving. I said no n he told mi my bookshelf which have a height of 2m wont fit into a cab.. OMG! So I went to find out if a London cab could fit my stuff n the ans was no.. Oh my!!! So well, we came back empty handed todae.. N i got to think of transportation.. N also got to transport my stuff from hall back to home.. Oh man...

So funny.. this afternoon when i asked him to wake up from his afternoon nap, he said he very tired let him sleep a little while more coz he had a very tiring dream.. N he roughly tell me his dream in a very sleepy voice. He said tat we were running n running in some desert looking for some treasure so tat we can get married. If nv find cannot.. Hahaha.. After telling mi these, he fell back to sleep almost instantly..

Count down to sch: 14 dayS.. (2 weeks)


So many things to do within these 2 weeks..


No longer going to stay in hall anymore.


So..


Gotta get a study table from ikea,


rearrange the furniture in my room,


get a cheap laser printer for notes printing,


get a cutie file for the new sem,


stationery,


pencil box....

Back from Tioman yesterdae evening. Well, it was a nice, relaxing n fun trip. Except for the journey.. The bus took about 4 hrs n the ferry took abt 2 hrs.. Oh my.. So in all travelling time was like 6 hrs.. Tats the only dreadful part..
So on the first day, 18th, we had to reach DFS by 630am.. Oh my!! so i dragged myself out of bed at 515am n started preparing.. We met at Orchard MRT n headed to DFS. Breakfast was Mac on the bus... Reached Tioman at 2pm and after checking in, went for lunch immediately.. was so hungry..
**Lazy to type..
In all, it was a very beautiful place.. Sand, sea n sun.. We snokerl, dip in the sea, swim in the pool, went for spa massage, shop in the tiny duty free shop, walked a little futher down for Ramly Burger, had late night supper, drink *the alcohol there was v cheap, look at the stars **super lots of stars!!! The entire sky was filled with stars.., played pool, lots of eating, n juz chatting.. Oh n we also took a mag w/o permission n brought it home.. But we have the every intention of returning it if we ever return to Paya again.. Hahaha.. It was a mag showing the pics of Maldives.. Omg!!!
Ok pictures time...

Waiting for the ferry to arrive to pick us to Tioman

The wind was so strong @ the open area of the ferry.. was almost lifted away..Hehe.. =)

The resort we stayed was Paya Papaya Resort...

Just look @ the pic.. Look completely like a postcard..

The tiny place behind was where we did our massage.. It was a tiny spa.. Super tiny with only 2 beds..

Pondering into deep thoughts as I look out at the beautiful sea..

Look @ the clear water...

I know this pic isnt a any great pic but this was taken by him and he said this before he took '' 1, 2, 3...'' So wat? Are my toes suppose to smile? Haha

Kinda miss the short stay there.. The slow pace life.. N the just us in our own tiny world kinda feeling..

What does the future hold for us???

*Made myself a cup of hot milo n ponder into my deep thoughts..

Lesson 1: Independence
Did a quick search and the definition of independence is: freedom from control or influence of another or others. Base on the definition, isnt it then very difficult to obtain independence? Coz u coz to be free from control or influence. No matter wat others do or treat u, u would not b hurt or affected.
If indepence exists, does that means that love doesnt exist? Coz if u love or care for someone, u would somehow be controlled by that person n the person's action no matter wat would affect u to a certain degree.. Or rather if love exists, does that means that there is no independence?
Gonna learn to be more independent. Not going to be so dependent on others so tat I would not b affected tat much by others' action. Wont tat be better for myself? Its for my own good.. Ya I love others but I think I got to relearn how to love n protect myself more.. **Lost tat skill over the years..

sinking into depression..

He went to work todae
Ended work n did not contact mi
Then sms me saying he reaching home le
Asked him some stuff
And he like so angry n in such a bad mood
Called him after he settled down n taken dinner to discuss sth
He was gaming n didnt really listen
Game
Game
Game
Till it was well past midnight before he contacted me
Tmr is a sat n he is working
Sun working too..

Birth order factor and your personality:
by Dr Kevin Leman

Discover how your personality is influenced by your position in the family


Only-borns
Positives: Only-borns are the mega-movers of the world. They are task-orientated; tend to be extremely well organised, highly conscientious and dependable. They are keen on facts, ideas and details and feel extremely comfortable with responsibility.
Negatives: The negative characteristics of only-borns can be tough to handle. They are often unforgiving, very demanding, hate to admit they're wrong and usually don't accept criticism well. To others, they seem very sensitive and indeed, their feelings are easily hurt.

First-borns
Positives: They are natural leaders and often high achievers. The majority of politicians, spokespersons and managing directors are first-borns. They frequently live with a sense of entitlement and even superiority. They often come in two flavours: compliant nurturers/caregivers or aggressive movers and shakers. Both are in control; they just use different methods. As a rule, first-borns are picky, precise people - they pay attention to detail - tend to be punctual, organised, and competent. They want to see things done right the first time. They don't like surprises.
Negatives: They are often moody and occasionally lack sensitivity. They can be intimidating, particularly by pushing people too hard or refusing to take no for an answer. Sometimes they can be a bit 'know-it-all', and often they are poor at delegating - largely because they don't trust other people as much as they trust themselves. They also tend to be bossy, perfectionists and overly-conscientious.

Middle-Borns
Positives: The classic middle-born is very relational, tends to be a people-pleaser and usually hates confrontation. Their basic need is to keep life smooth and their motto might be 'peace at any price'. They are usually very calm, will roll with the punches and are amiable, down-to-earth and great listeners. They are skilled at seeing both sides of a problem and eager to make everybody happy. That makes them good mediators and negotiators.
Negatives: They tend to be less driven than first-borns, but are much more eager to be liked - or at least be happy with them. They have a difficult time setting boundaries. They can drift into becoming 'co-dependent' as they try to please everybody. They are not good at making decisions that will offend others. They also tend to blame themselves when others fail.

Last-Borns
Positives: Last-borns are the world's cheerleaders. You have strong people skills and love to entertain and talk to others. You make friends easily and immediately make others feel at home. You're an extrovert, energised by the presence of other people and you're probably not afraid to take risks.
Negatives: Last-borns tend to get bored quickly. They have a strong fear of rejection and a short attention span. When the fun stops, they've had enough and want to check out. To some extent they're self-centred. They may harbour unrealistic expectations of finding a relationship that is always fun - and of course, such relationships simply do not last.

with a little magic, i transformed my dull blog tat goes according to the template given by blogger.com into this!!! Hehe.. So proud of myself.. Haha.. Know tat it isnt tat fantastic but then its my first time! N i think its



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so happy...